tysm!! its actually a mix of all 3. The girl here, is trying to explain her past by journaling and indirectly telling the reader about what she had done/ her past. She wants to trick the reader into thinking that she has "accepted" her fate, and in hopes that someday she will escape.

This piece delves into the fractured psyche of someone pushed beyond their limits. The raw emotions, haunting repetition of numbers, and disturbing calmness create a powerful, unsettling narrative. The contrast between lost innocence and violent retribution is striking.
Is this a confession, a cry for help, or simply the voice of someone who’s already made peace with their darkness?