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"I don't remember myself being this pathetic before...674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoa4JjFC4bw
I have no motivation left to try, I don't have any patience left in me...674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcIwd7OcMXv
I feel like I'm becoming more and more useless each day.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYfYCSZ8fv9
And I know that i don't even try, but I get so anxious when I think about exams..."674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVKlhN5lXwI
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"I'm scared of being left behind... forever."674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMmKmTKNpDE
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"I'm scared that I might give up on myself."
Have I already given up on myself?
"It's rough, it's lonely... and I don't see a way out."
"Time waits for no one."
"I don't have the willpower to change, and I'm a master at justifying myself." 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIcJsrXJm5h
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But...674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd2zAGui3k3
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"We all have our ups and downs. We're human. It's incredibly hard to be consistent, since we're not machines (ISTJs go brrrr though). As long as we think, we'll keep on making excuses for ourselves... and that's normal. Everyone does it. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVUM2tgkSRk
At the end of the day, you're worrying and thinking about your own future. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkRdDnE7TXx
A person who thinks about changes, and is willing to change...674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyCoxtLKLux
Is absolutely not pathetic.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTfdhS4XJ7
You're not garbage."674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7jHviqsXYy
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"Being strong enough to get up and fight every day is a special talent. You never know, there might be someone very close to you doing it... just for you."
I know I don't work very hard, but I hate being told that more than almost everything. I hate it when my parents remind me that I've done nothing. I hate it when they tell me to do work. Stupid, isn't it?
I once told my parents that I would continue to feel inferior, worthless and unsuccessful if I don't make a decent salary in a few years. You know what they said?674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiVxJgmZu4o
"It's okay. You don't need to make money. You can live under our our roof forever."674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVudhPY6gf7
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I don't want that though. Despite everything, I want to live by my own efforts. I'm a mess, yet I don't want anyone's help. I mean, I can ask for help when I need it, but...674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJhV1E981X1
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Sorry, mum. Nothing's working out for you huh?674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡblmTMHEvGI
You wasted all your money on all the sports, instruments, tutoring lessons on your son. 674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5JfGebSc90
Your son didn’t meet all your expectations.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ29vXOP7oWj
Your son doesn't want to get married.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc9I2jrdWG2
Your son might just end up a broke loser on the street.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡISLAbUWEo0
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You know, you paid thousands of dollars for my overnight contact lenses, only for me to be too lazy to wear it.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1gBMEcMZ9X
You paid another thousand for me to do that Duke of Edinburgh challenge, though I never submitted my report and ended up never getting the certification. I still never told you... to this day.
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I know I said I'd pay you back for everything you've given to me, but I don't know if I can.
I might just be the worthless child you tried so hard to prevent me being.
Hahaha.
I'm sorry, I'm just a coward, so I just want to run away. Take the easy way out.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCCdPP12kMB
I'm scared of failing, so.
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But today, too, I'm still alive. So even though I've accomplished nothing, even when it looks like there's no escape, I'll keep going. I have to keep going. I'll finish my degree. If I get a full-time job, so be it. If I don't, then that's fine. I might regret it. But at the end of the day, I'm alive. No matter how afraid I am for tomorrow, I'll have to face it. The main thing keeping me unhappy... is me.
Thanks for loving me. I'm sorry I can't love you back as of now, or maybe for a long time to come. But maybe one day, I will.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj4YnCbrAZO
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Sincerely,674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7f6XUBYe3w
Your son Charlie.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVBAHy52ybj
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P.S. Screw you sis /j.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9LjLGj37BV
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[I remembered the existence of this song midway through writing this]674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXLZbYYIQIE
... And on a whim, I sent a voice message containing all of this to my parents (it's 3am right now, but my parents are on vacation elsewhere). Saying it out loud is really something, huh.674Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpzlCTr3ANn
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My mother just sent me back a hug emoji and "goodnight" as it was the last word of my voice message as well. Not going to lie, I think that's the best thing she's ever said or texted. I wonder if she'll write a long paragraph or send a long voice message back later.
and then Add to home screen.