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"I don't remember myself being this pathetic before...677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFulUhQNa4S
I have no motivation left to try, I don't have any patience left in me...677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPS3IKzSnuD
I feel like I'm becoming more and more useless each day.677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgnjLBWZB3p
And I know that i don't even try, but I get so anxious when I think about exams..."677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡezl8pJUsLs
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"I'm scared of being left behind... forever."677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlzzqkJih9C
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"I'm scared that I might give up on myself."
Have I already given up on myself?
"It's rough, it's lonely... and I don't see a way out."
"Time waits for no one."
"I don't have the willpower to change, and I'm a master at justifying myself." 677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNlDkzJnR9x
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But...677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVhJc4ax3y8
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"We all have our ups and downs. We're human. It's incredibly hard to be consistent, since we're not machines (ISTJs go brrrr though). As long as we think, we'll keep on making excuses for ourselves... and that's normal. Everyone does it. 677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWjbPK7RdmE
At the end of the day, you're worrying and thinking about your own future. 677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDTl5rXEv4T
A person who thinks about changes, and is willing to change...677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSqCBei696
Is absolutely not pathetic.677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe8DIkXcUi2
You're not garbage."677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHfvRFJYiKG
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"Being strong enough to get up and fight every day is a special talent. You never know, there might be someone very close to you doing it... just for you."
I know I don't work very hard, but I hate being told that more than almost everything. I hate it when my parents remind me that I've done nothing. I hate it when they tell me to do work. Stupid, isn't it?
I once told my parents that I would continue to feel inferior, worthless and unsuccessful if I don't make a decent salary in a few years. You know what they said?677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXH0m3VPQyy
"It's okay. You don't need to make money. You can live under our our roof forever."677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ009pQg87CV
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I don't want that though. Despite everything, I want to live by my own efforts. I'm a mess, yet I don't want anyone's help. I mean, I can ask for help when I need it, but...677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ImcZD1GGg
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Sorry, mum. Nothing's working out for you huh?677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0O3kiiGp6F
You wasted all your money on all the sports, instruments, tutoring lessons on your son. 677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT47FxpLGim
Your son didn’t meet all your expectations.677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4gm3jvxgHl
Your son doesn't want to get married.677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrgxhkssZzY
Your son might just end up a broke loser on the street.677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGLNnzEWsTY
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You know, you paid thousands of dollars for my overnight contact lenses, only for me to be too lazy to wear it.677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡipAxJBLaed
You paid another thousand for me to do that Duke of Edinburgh challenge, though I never submitted my report and ended up never getting the certification. I still never told you... to this day.
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I know I said I'd pay you back for everything you've given to me, but I don't know if I can.
I might just be the worthless child you tried so hard to prevent me being.
Hahaha.
I'm sorry, I'm just a coward, so I just want to run away. Take the easy way out.677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIxIUDuSeO6
I'm scared of failing, so.
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But today, too, I'm still alive. So even though I've accomplished nothing, even when it looks like there's no escape, I'll keep going. I have to keep going. I'll finish my degree. If I get a full-time job, so be it. If I don't, then that's fine. I might regret it. But at the end of the day, I'm alive. No matter how afraid I am for tomorrow, I'll have to face it. The main thing keeping me unhappy... is me.
Thanks for loving me. I'm sorry I can't love you back as of now, or maybe for a long time to come. But maybe one day, I will.677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuG2mp3hLoC
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Sincerely,677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqQIjx1iEWq
Your son Charlie.677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxprzyCzxdo
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P.S. Screw you sis /j.677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTzdIaAeKMk
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... And on a whim, I sent a voice message containing all of this to my parents (it's 3am right now, but my parents are on vacation elsewhere). Saying it out loud is really something, huh.677Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU8QmIUTJIJ
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My mother just sent me back a hug emoji and "goodnight" as it was the last word of my voice message as well. Not going to lie, I think that's the best thing she's ever said or texted. I wonder if she'll write a long paragraph or send a long voice message back later.
and then Add to home screen.