Kelly Clarkson once sang7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUYvMnaCUWh
"My heart can't possibly break when it wasn't even whole to start with,"
And my heart, well, my heart had surgery done in infancy to patch a hole
Never even whole to start with, what with a hole, patched up in hospital
My first five months of life were spent in hospital, though my mom visited daily
So to call myself heartbroken by birth would be misleading, maybe
But my family was what first broke me, six years old being touched in the backseat
Fighting, animalistic, unable to explain what was being torn from me
Blamed for fighting, being violent, being torn in two and told to smile through
Pain, what pain? There's no pain here, there's no heart here, no bloodshed.
My first love doesn't count, family can't count, everyone knows that
So my first love was my best friend when I was eleven, two girls, also doesn't count
Because girls can't love girls in a way that counts as being in love
But she was my first heartbreak that counted, crying in my bedroom floor
Having lied and lied and lost because nobody loves a liar.
I didn't know how to tell the truth even if I had wanted to.
But of course a heart that was never whole to start with
Can be broken more easily by outside forces, by violent takings.
Is it heartbreak when my body was taken? When my heart was never wanted to begin with?
Nobody wants to know, so I won't take anyone else's time by trying to put into words
What was taken, what I did, what will never cease.
At least this heart is beating. At least this life is still ongoing.7Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnEgVYDcL3n
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