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The event was in full swing. The students were scattered across the field, participating in different games, cheering, laughing, competing.35Please respect copyright.PENANAS23UpJMnnL
But as Musa scanned the crowd, his eyes were drawn to one spot. She was there again.35Please respect copyright.PENANAAQamiSMI5K
This time, there was no ribbon. But Musa remembered the yellow ribbon the way someone remembers an old song—not just the melody, but the feeling that came with it. The feeling of being a little out of place, of being in the middle of something but still searching for something deeper. That’s how he remembered her from last year, and he saw it now in the way she moved—hesitant, yet curious.35Please respect copyright.PENANAdcIyeUjoeb
Musa watched her from a distance, feeling that familiar flutter in his chest. Her hair was loose, not tied back with a ribbon like before, but there was still something about her, something that made him feel like he knew her, even though they had never really spoken.35Please respect copyright.PENANA9AXfs9YBS5
The yellow ribbon had become more than just a symbol of her uniqueness. It was a marker of a moment in his mind, one that lingered in his thoughts for a year. He couldn’t help but watch her, his gaze following her across the field, even though he didn’t approach. 35Please respect copyright.PENANA5pDxaJJbyn
He wasn’t sure why he hadn’t yet. Maybe he didn’t know how.35Please respect copyright.PENANAovVTUnWwfI
But he knew one thing for certain: he couldn’t let the chance pass him by again. She was here now—right in front of him. And he was going to find a way to make that connection. To finally talk to her.35Please respect copyright.PENANAhPcL6dzAJN
But just as quickly as his heart raced, she disappeared into the crowd.35Please respect copyright.PENANA8cx9GL9Z6y
Kim35Please respect copyright.PENANA7AdSnyHVu2
The sun is blazing overhead, casting shadows on the grass beneath my feet. My heart’s still pounding from the last race, and I’m trying to catch my breath, but I can’t ignore the feeling that something’s... off. I look around, hoping for a quiet corner to breathe, but of course, there's no escaping the noise. Everyone's cheering, laughing, running around. The annual sports day has this buzz to it, the whole school in motion, and I’m just... here. Trying not to stand out, trying to blend in like the others.35Please respect copyright.PENANAmgVLCcmjY1
But then I feel it. The eyes. On me.35Please respect copyright.PENANA8iEXmwOd0V
At first, I think it’s nothing. I’ve gotten used to them. It's not like I'm new to school anymore—I'm not a mono. But today, there's something different about the way they’re looking at me. It’s like the air between us thickens every time I walk by, their gazes following my every step.35Please respect copyright.PENANAQkLb0qZmG9
Then Seline appears out of nowhere, blocking my path with a too-sweet smile on her face. “Hey, Kim,” she says, casually like we’ve been talking for ages. “You going for the long race?”35Please respect copyright.PENANAPilsfffFcl
I’m not sure what to say. Her breath smells like the soda I know she has just had, sweet and too strong. “Maybe... if I can get the nerve,” I reply, trying to smile but feeling like it’s forced.35Please respect copyright.PENANAsLNZvsHd45
“You’ll do great,” she says, and then her eyes flicker to my back. She leans in a little too close for comfort, like as if we're old friends and I really wouldn’t mind.35Please respect copyright.PENANAA0WTZHQMrj
“You have company. He’s really cute” she says and adds as she walks away from me as if not fast enough for her laughing. “Try not to lose him like the race.”35Please respect copyright.PENANAAFok6NEcR4
I’m confused, not sure how to respond. But before I can back away, another voice cuts through the tension. I didn’t even see him approach, but now he’s standing right there, a little too close to me too. He’s got that look, the one that makes me feel like he’s studying me, picking me apart. 35Please respect copyright.PENANA0ITS47CFZn
His voice is low and casual, like he’s just making conversation, but there’s something behind it. “Don’t listen to her,” he says, tilting his head toward Seline now completely lost in the crowd. “I think you’ll blow them all away. You look like a natural athlete.”35Please respect copyright.PENANACN7ZHEeu6l
Natural? Athlete? I don’t even know how to respond. Why is he saying that? It doesn’t make sense. I’m not an athlete. I don’t even want to race. But there’s that weird flutter in my chest again—the one that makes my stomach twist, even though I know it’s all just small talk.35Please respect copyright.PENANAQpLqPejsA9
“Thanks...” I manage to mumble, but my words feel hollow, like they don’t mean anything.35Please respect copyright.PENANAieZFo55WKq
And then, as if on cue, another boy pops up from behind him. 35Please respect copyright.PENANAlQ39DrCyHK
“Hey, Kim, don’t you think it’s time someone taught you how to win? You should join me for the relay race. I’ll be your partner,” he calls out in a voice that’s loud enough for everyone to hear.35Please respect copyright.PENANA9ni3at73RZ
I can feel the heat rising in my cheeks. My stomach twists. I want to say something. I want to shut them down, but the words don’t come. Instead, I stand there, frozen, not knowing how to escape this conversation that feels like it’s not really a conversation at all.35Please respect copyright.PENANAi6SWjinfzD
“Come on, Kim, what’s the matter?” the first boy prods, stepping closer. “You scared to race in front of everyone? You’re going to embarrass yourself?”35Please respect copyright.PENANAUIpAPLsRc0
The laughter from his friend is like a dull echo in my ears. It’s not funny. Not to me. It’s like they’ve turned it into a joke, and I’m the punchline. The more they tease me, the more it feels like I’m sinking, like I’m not even me anymore. I’m just this thing for them to joke about.35Please respect copyright.PENANAQbqyoVSpeU
Musa35Please respect copyright.PENANAe1IiGQOEIO
Musa stood on the edge of the field; his arms crossed tightly across his chest as his eyes followed Kim from a distance. A relay race was happening nearby, but it barely registered in his mind. His focus was on her—and the way she seemed to fit so effortlessly into the scene.35Please respect copyright.PENANAuCNbhp5hLm
She was talking to some older Form Four seniors, her laughter ringing out across the field, and Musa felt his stomach tighten. One was leaning in too close, his hand brushing against her arm in a way that felt too familiar, too comfortable. Musa tried to ignore it, tried to look at something else, but he couldn’t tear his gaze away. Every time she smiled, every time she laughed, it felt like the boys were stealing something from him. Something he couldn’t even name.35Please respect copyright.PENANAWCn1S0lN7M
He tried to tell himself it didn’t matter. She was just talking to them. It wasn’t anything. It shouldn’t bother him. But it did.35Please respect copyright.PENANATUx8JwiR0r
Musa had watched Kim for a longtime now—he’d been aware of her, from a distance. She was always there, part of the event, but never in the spotlight. Last year, she’d barely caught his attention. 35Please respect copyright.PENANAioQUnGzZt8
She was just another face, one of the many in the sea of girls. But this year—this year, everything had changed. She wasn’t just another girl. She was the one. And the way she’d blossomed into someone everyone seemed to flock to—it bothered him more than he wanted to admit.35Please respect copyright.PENANAGYL02SEb71
She was now with a group of girls from her school. One of the girls said something to her that made her laugh again. It was a soft, easy laugh, one that made it clear they shared something—something he didn’t have access to. It was the way she leaned in, the way her eyes sparkled. Everything about her in this moment was open and alive, and Musa hated that he couldn’t be the one to make her laugh like that.35Please respect copyright.PENANATqxDkQ3m0M
The frustration simmered in his chest, tightening around his ribcage. He was used to control, used to being the one people noticed, the one who commanded attention. But with her, it was different. She had the power. It was always her choice, always her moment to share with whoever she pleased. And right now, she was sharing it with someone else.35Please respect copyright.PENANADbjJYGkUYa
He could feel the jealousy rising inside him like a slow burn. It was irrational, but he couldn’t stop it. Every time a boy leaned in a little too close, or another interrupted with some joke, Musa felt a deeper frustration. 35Please respect copyright.PENANAJVe3t57pid
She wasn’t just talking to them—she was one of them. She belonged there, in that circle. And Musa wasn’t sure where he fit anymore.35Please respect copyright.PENANAkzGuJ4PmA3
He shifted uneasily, trying to force himself to focus on the race, to pretend like he didn’t care, but the scene on the field kept pulling him back. Kim was laughing again, her head tilted back, her eyes alight with something he couldn’t touch. The boys were all around her now—and even a few others from his class. The group seemed to close in on her, and Musa’s sense of helplessness grew. She was never alone.35Please respect copyright.PENANAHQ1zOn6z23
A voice snapped him out of his spiraling thoughts.35Please respect copyright.PENANAjiefufsLHn
“Musa, you coming to the after-party?”35Please respect copyright.PENANAguTTsEJR1z
It was Martin, one of his classmates, tapping him on the shoulder. Musa turned, his mind still half on Kim, but his attention pulled toward his classmate.35Please respect copyright.PENANA7ZNAUgcPKz
“Yeah, I’ll be there,” he muttered, barely processing the question. His eyes darted back to Kim, who was now talking animatedly with another boy, once again leaning toward her. It never stopped.35Please respect copyright.PENANAXSwqvyALaG
“She’s always with them, huh?” Musa said before he could stop himself, his voice a little sharper than he intended.35Please respect copyright.PENANAzJIvwGJOpQ
Martin gave him a puzzled look. “Who?”35Please respect copyright.PENANAjrbPSDZPrL
“Her,” Musa said, pointing towards Kim, his jaw tightening. “She’s always with them.”35Please respect copyright.PENANAEt5yBjBQMp
Martin shrugged, seemingly unaware of the weight in Musa’s voice. “So? She’s cool, bro. She talks to everyone.”35Please respect copyright.PENANAzivTpv4I6F
Musa felt the frustration surge again, but he bit back his words. “She’s never alone,” he said quietly, more to himself than to Martin.35Please respect copyright.PENANAInEy173UIx
There was a long silence as Martin processed the words, his expression unreadable. “Well, what do you expect, man? She’s popular. You know how it is.”35Please respect copyright.PENANAYjZaC0FNPA
But it didn’t help. Nothing helped.35Please respect copyright.PENANAY3jMdhdx8E
Musa’s gaze flicked back to Kim. She was still surrounded by the boys, still laughing and enjoying herself, and it felt like something deep inside him was twisting. He couldn’t even get close. Every time he tried, another boy stepped in between them, another voice stole her attention. It was like she was untouchable, a person he could observe but never reach.35Please respect copyright.PENANAUnCMammhc1
The thing was, he wasn’t used to not being noticed. He had always been in control, always the one who could make an impression. But with her, everything was different. She was always surrounded by someone. There was never an opening.35Please respect copyright.PENANAWSJFRkJ2Ju
And now, watching her laugh with her new friends, seeing the way they shared some private joke, Musa felt a surge of resentment. He wanted to be the one to make her laugh like that, to be the one to have her attention. But every time he tried to get close, he was shut out.35Please respect copyright.PENANAVS0I9oQNvp
It wasn’t fair.35Please respect copyright.PENANAvi3YOogTgb
He wanted to walk up to her, pull her away from the boys, make her see him—really see him. But it was impossible. She was always surrounded, always with them. And the worst part?35Please respect copyright.PENANATcEDlpuC4m
She didn’t even notice him standing there.35Please respect copyright.PENANAczBufyAmJa
Musa turned away, his body tense with the frustration that had been building all afternoon. He could feel the heat of it creeping into his chest, his hands clenched into fists at his sides. He didn’t know what to do with it.35Please respect copyright.PENANAZBOFZnci1T
And so, he walked away, pushing through the crowd, trying to shake off the feeling of being left behind. But it stayed with him. The jealousy. The frustration. The unanswered longing.35Please respect copyright.PENANAdvoeKof3s8
It wasn’t just about the race.35Please respect copyright.PENANAR1bCugIftQ
It was about Kim.35Please respect copyright.PENANAJdCP5x29mA
And for the first time, Musa realized—he didn’t know how to get her to notice him.35Please respect copyright.PENANAipnEY1k7tF
Kim35Please respect copyright.PENANAGsCSW6leHL
I try to laugh it off. Fake it. But I can’t do it. I feel like they’re all waiting for something. For me to crack, to give them a reason to keep going. And I don’t want to give them that.35Please respect copyright.PENANAcOWd4eVW9s
“I... I think I’ll go back to my friends,” I mutter, stepping away from them, not looking back. But it doesn’t matter. They keep watching me, following my every move.35Please respect copyright.PENANAIrwc7hQvQV
I walk faster now, hoping I’ll get far enough away, but it feels like they’re still there, just behind me. 35Please respect copyright.PENANADYNUsAksov
I quicken my pace, head down, trying to disappear into the crowd of girls sitting by the bleachers. I want to hide. I want the ground to swallow me whole.35Please respect copyright.PENANA3kvMM4znc6
But I can’t stop thinking about the eyes. They follow me, even when I turn away.35Please respect copyright.PENANAx8dKdQYxWY
It’s getting to that point where I can’t stand the noise anymore. The boys, their constant attention, the way they think they’re so clever, so cool, all because they can throw compliments my way or say some silly joke that they think will make me laugh. I’m tired of it. I just want someone to talk to me for who I am, not for the way I look, not for the way I laugh.35Please respect copyright.PENANAdyP3Rd4hXf
I’ve been trying to shake off the attention all day, but it’s like a cloud I can’t escape. 35Please respect copyright.PENANAA4jj3aIU2d
They hover around, they follow me, they’re all so eager to prove something—like I care about any of it. I’m so tired of it.35Please respect copyright.PENANAFP6QH4Klf8
And then I see him.35Please respect copyright.PENANA4AsHSh8ITM
I’ve seen him before, of course. He’s impossible not to notice—always hanging out in the back, never really mixing with the crowd. He’s quieter than the others, more distant, like he’s not even interested in being a part of the show everyone else is putting on. I’ve watched him a few times, mostly from a distance. He doesn’t speak much. Never shows up in any of the usual circles, never joins in with the boys who think they own the place.35Please respect copyright.PENANAvs0EUBQmub
Something about that sticks with me. Maybe it’s the way he’s always out of place. Maybe it’s the way he doesn’t care to get attention; how different he is from the others. I don’t know. But now, after hours of feeling like I’m trapped in a cage with all these boys trying to outdo each other, I find myself staring at him across the field.35Please respect copyright.PENANADffSHB1w9l
There’s something about him. Maybe it’s the fact that he’s so... different. So away from all of this. He’s just standing there by the edge of the crowd, his hands in his pockets, not trying to impress anyone. The more I look at him, the more I realize that, out of everyone here, he’s the one who hasn’t bothered me at all.35Please respect copyright.PENANAIKWF1Bek6a
I know it’s crazy. I don’t even know him. I’ve never spoken to him. But maybe that’s the point.35Please respect copyright.PENANAGBmvJqfgTK
I’ve had enough of the constant noise, the boys who think they can pull my attention by talking about their games or how fast they run. I don’t want any of that. I want something real. I want... something different.35Please respect copyright.PENANAQ0rH4pNSAm
Before I can second-guess myself, I take a step toward him.35Please respect copyright.PENANAToBF6gUqdm
His back is to me, but I know he feels the shift in the air. Maybe it’s because I’m one of the few people brave enough to walk through the crowd without glancing away, trying to look busy while I hide away. But I’m not hiding anymore. Not today. Not anymore.35Please respect copyright.PENANAAVAMncaPHI
When I reach him, he doesn’t turn around right away. For a moment, it’s almost like he’s pretending he doesn’t see me. But I know he does. He knows I’m here.35Please respect copyright.PENANAqU7zHeR1Vd
“Hey,” I say, a little too loud, a little too eager.35Please respect copyright.PENANAawvBEG2gHu
It sounds forced in my own ears, but I don’t care. I’m here for small talk after all. I’m here because I’ve decided I don’t want to be that girl anymore. The one who’s always on the receiving end of unwanted attention.35Please respect copyright.PENANAK8pQ48P0fj
“Musa, right?”. I read his name from his prefect’s tag on his blazer.35Please respect copyright.PENANA3M9Faa7xyd
He scans around, slowly, like he’s not entirely sure if I’m talking to him or someone else. There’s a flicker of recognition in his eyes, but then it fades. He seems surprised, almost confused. I don’t care. I’m tired of the way the boys in this school have all been so quick to chase me around. Musa is different. He doesn’t play those games.35Please respect copyright.PENANAI8IOzQUp6c
“Yeah, that’s me,” he answers, his voice low and hesitant, like he’s trying to figure out why I’m standing in front of him, like he’s trying to understand why I’m talking to him. 35Please respect copyright.PENANAvKlSOo5uvI
“Can I help you with something?”35Please respect copyright.PENANAzhs7rLXLE4
His voice is... softer than I expected. Less guarded. It makes me wonder what’s behind that quietness. Who is he really?35Please respect copyright.PENANANbrLZ7cWHa
“I don’t know,” I say, and I can feel the words hanging in the air. I shrug, trying to play it cool, but deep down I’m surprised at myself. What the heck am I even doing? 35Please respect copyright.PENANA3JIR5eNTQm
“Just felt like talking to someone who’s not trying to impress me for once.”35Please respect copyright.PENANAgJlmgoZdK3
His brow furrows slightly, and for a second, I think he’s going to say something defensive, like he’s not the type to be just another guy after me. But then he looks away for a brief second, like he’s thinking it through.35Please respect copyright.PENANA58FlHwkWrx
“Well,” he finally says, “I’m not good at impressing people, if that helps.”35Please respect copyright.PENANAsUo5UVMJFq
I laugh, genuinely surprised. He’s not even trying to make a joke. It’s just... honest. And that’s kind of refreshing. A little weird, but refreshing. I can’t remember the last time someone said something that didn’t feel like a performance.35Please respect copyright.PENANA6ZgEcL1CXd
“Well, I guess that’s a good start,” I say with a small smile. 35Please respect copyright.PENANAUuHdzvtfOr
For the first time today, I actually feel like I’m in control of the conversation, like I’m not just a piece of the show. I can feel the weight of the boys’ stares fading into the background. For a moment, it’s just us, standing here.35Please respect copyright.PENANAPf8YWFEVcy
“So... what’s your deal, Musa? Why do you keep to yourself?”35Please respect copyright.PENANAAdx2PUzoiC
He looks at me, his expression a little unsure but not hostile. “I just don’t like the noise,” he says simply. 35Please respect copyright.PENANA5GdR6WuoZM
“There’s a lot of... distractions, I guess. And I’m not much for them.”35Please respect copyright.PENANAQzBC32Nf6r
I smile, and it’s strange. It’s easy. Too easy.35Please respect copyright.PENANASZY2YOKjyO
“Yeah,” I say, my voice quieter now, almost as if I’m letting him in on something I’ve been thinking for a while. 35Please respect copyright.PENANAgT8108YLus
“I get that. It’s hard to find a moment of peace with everyone always making a big deal out of nothing.”35Please respect copyright.PENANAPno2IYtLBP
He nods, as if he understands what I’m talking about. It’s the first time today I’ve felt like someone actually gets it—gets what I’ve been feeling all along.35Please respect copyright.PENANAKLNRHv8tgP
“I’m glad you’re not like the others,” I say, before I can stop myself.35Please respect copyright.PENANAUB5QNqIJPW
Musa doesn’t respond right away, but there’s something in his eyes now. Maybe he’s a little more at ease, or maybe he’s just as surprised as I am that we’re actually talking.35Please respect copyright.PENANA5KsHsvHF9S
“Well,” he says, finally breaking the silence, “I guess I’m glad you’re not like the others either.”35Please respect copyright.PENANAg2H5qQKGIv
It’s funny. I don’t even know why I chose him, but here I am, talking to him like he’s someone I’ve known forever. No pretenses. No games. Just two people, both tired of all the noise.35Please respect copyright.PENANABvAZJrYDsd
And somehow, I feel like maybe this is the start of something real.35Please respect copyright.PENANAOrdRcjPA97
*********35Please respect copyright.PENANAClK19u0XJw
Before she can answer, Seline appears at Kim’s side, her eyes flicking quickly from Kim to Juma. She barely acknowledges Kim, focusing instead on Juma. 35Please respect copyright.PENANAbkNXCxZXk3
“Hey, Juma, I was looking for you,” she says, her tone light but pointed. 35Please respect copyright.PENANAoPL26XULkl
Juma glances at Kim, then back at Seline, a little uncertain. Kim expects Juma to stay reserved, but instead, his face lights up with a smile that Kim hasn’t seen before. 35Please respect copyright.PENANATkrpTlACNt
“Hey, Seline!” he calls out, his voice warmer and more animated than it’s been all afternoon.35Please respect copyright.PENANAiTBIR29Dxn
Seline grins back, clearly pleased by his reaction. 35Please respect copyright.PENANAfS8MKulOJn
“Did you see the relay? I thought you’d be at the finish line cheering,” she teases, nudging his arm like it’s the most natural thing in the world.35Please respect copyright.PENANAFt0yMtMsH2
Kim feels a flicker of confusion. She hadn’t expected Juma to be so happy to see Seline-she thought their conversation was going somewhere. Now, watching the easy way Juma and Seline interact, Kim suddenly feels like an outsider, unsure where she stands.35Please respect copyright.PENANA7UaBmJEcD2
The conversation shifts; Seline and Juma start talking about something only they seem to understand, leaving Kim on the outside. Kim feels herself fading into the background, suddenly the third wheel in her own conversation.35Please respect copyright.PENANAuU1yNdse5n
The field is a mess of color and noise. It’s sports day, and everyone’s out here-boys and girls clumped together in little groups, some cheering, some sprawled on the grass, others just gossiping or messing around. 35Please respect copyright.PENANAiLqJf9cXNE
There’s a race happening somewhere, but half the crowd isn’t even watching. They’re too busy with their own drama, their own games. All around them, the field buzzes with the excitement and social energy that sports days bring, drawing people together and sometimes pulling them apart. 35Please respect copyright.PENANAxC8LPgngNt
For Kim, the moment is a reminder that in these big, lively groups, connections can shift in an instant-and sometimes, you’re left wondering where you really belong.35Please respect copyright.PENANAMQ5jzo7RxR
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In the noise of everyone else, the quiet ones finally speak.
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